Friday, March 11, 2011
totally fascinated...it must be right
I sometimes wonder why I am so interested in nursing. Where did that come from? I believe deeply in God's plan and can only imagine it comes from that special plan for me. The other day I was able to do chest compressions on a patient that unfortunately did not make it. I (surprisingly) was able to disconnect completely from the emotional aspects of a lost life and was able to focus (with much fascination) on the medical aspects of death-the signs of death...foggy eyes, settling blood. I am truly fascinated. With my first application in and my second soon to be turned in, clinicals are right around the corner and I am on cloud 9. I told my husband that I will seriously go into a deep depression and cry for
days weeks months if I am not accepted to one of the programs. I pray before each and every test. I ask God to be with me as I take the test and say, "God, if you want me to be a nurse, help me during this exam. Clear my mind. Help me find the right answers." I thank Him when I have been successful. Thus far, I have been very successful. Thank you, God! I am a little anxious to find out how I did on my AP midterm, but what is...is. I had my exam Saturday morning. This was after entertaining my family in an after-funeral party for my dear great-uncle Friday night. We had a great time catching up and I was tired and hungover for the exam. Not the best shape...to say the least. Hoping for the best.